I revealed how my son died.
I guess I felt like it was time.
I feel strongly about sharing that part of me with potential clients. My hope is that they can relate to me somehow. After all, sooner or later we all lose someone we love.
My son, took his own life.
He was only 14, and in another country without me.
I was so afraid of people judging me, that I kept that secret bottled up inside.
Now, after almost four years (this July), I don't care anymore about what others think.
I know this is something I need to do in order to cleanse myself of all those dark feelings that sometimes creep up on me.
I feel free now.
Even if no one is reading this - I don't care.
It's out there now for all the world to read.
I can't seem to stop the flow of tears right now.
A wise man once said:
My life has been full of trials beyond my imagination.
But I'm not bitter.
Not anymore.
Mena xoxo
7 comments:
You are a beautiful soul sis. Thank you for sharing. Alofas from the Rock!
Myrn
Myrn, I miss you. Thank you for the beautiful comment.
Hey sis......I'm so happy for everything that's going for you right now. You are the younger sister I never had. You know the one that I luved to boss around & do experiments on. LOL! But also you trust me to defend you and you think I have answers for almost everything. I am proud to say you are my sister. Luv you always & forever!
It's a shame that we have to grow up. Sometimes I find myself wishing we were still the little girls who stowed away in that car from Cali to Utah. Thank you for believing in me when I didn't believe in myself. I'm thankful to you and your kids for your love and encouragement. You've always been one of my biggest supporters and I'll always be grateful for that. Love you sis.
I'm always amazed at how strong you are. I can only imagine how difficult it was for you to share this story and the tears you cried to write it. I've really loved getting to know you Mena. The good, bad, tragic and the wonderful... Love you!
Thanks Dilys, it was difficult to write it but also very freeing. I've enjoyed getting to know you too. You are beautiful inside and out. I love you so much and appreciate all you do for me and my family.
xoxo
Writing is therapeutic and a great way to express one's self. You are stronger now than ever before and will be able to lend your strength to someone who may need it in this long journey we are in. You should never lose sight of who you have become through your own trials.
A few years after moving here from Samoa. My father visited and while at lunch with him, I thought it appropriate to apologize to him for all the hell I have put him and my mom through as a teenager. He looked at me and said, "Auvale, the life you lived then was meant for you and it was meant for your mother and I to go through it with you." I thought it was a nice way of saying, "yeah, Karma will be an extra "B" to you now", but he really meant it. And he was right. All the trials I continue to face today with raising my eight children have been blessings because I understand what they go through and I'm able to share those difficult times without judging them. It has instilled in them the bond we have that nothing can destroy.
Mena, you are the bomb.com! God bless you in all you set out to do! I enjoy reading your blog and looking at the pictures! thoughts, prayers and much love your way
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